Just another day

Well it's just another day, nothing exciting or spectaular. In fact I have been feeling quite empty lately. Like I have no emotions, not happy, not sad, no anger...just nothing. I want to feel alive again. I miss the sparkle in my eyes.

Unfortunately, I do not know how to fix how I am feeling. Is this just the healing process of a shattered heart? Maybe. If so that is a good thing, that means I am letting go of the hurt and the pain (thank f-ing god) and moving on.

I am ready to feel normal again. I think people have noticed I'm not quite the same as I was. It is not my intention to act different. I want to be my old happy, goofy, sarcastic self. I just feel like all the flavor has been chewed out of my life right now.

I was thinking the other day how there is nothing I have in my life that I am passionate about doing. How sad is that? There are many things I would like to learn, along with thing I used to enjoy doing that I no longer do.

Lately I have been wanting to learn how to paint, but I don't know where to start. I also used to LOVE to shoot pool. But that is something that is better done with a worthy opponent, someone who will challenge me, to shapen my skills and step my game up. Taking pictures has also always seemed interesting to me, but that seems like it could get quite expensive. I have also enjoyed reading lately, but I have no idea what I would like to read next. I think I'm going to walk to the library tomorrow since it's right up the street and see if anything piques my interest.

So many things and I have no idea where to start.