If that's how you feel, walk away now.

You have succeeded in making me hate you, something I never thought I could do. Your selfishness made me sick to my stomach, and broke my heart once again. “If that’s how you feel, just walk away now.” Those were the words you spoke to me, without thinking about all you have already put me through. I have earned how I feel. How dare you be so selfish to believe you just magically deserve my trust, my openness, and my friendship back without having to earn it? The part that sucks is how can I hate you so much, yet love you with all my heart at the same time. However, I will not show these feelings to you, you do not deserve them.

I am astonished at how someone I thought I knew so well can become a complete stranger overnight. Somehow I think you are lost, and do not know who you truly are. If this is the case I am relieved what we had has come to an end. I know who and what I wanted out of my life, but do not care to allow you to waste anymore of the time I have in my life, while you try and figure out what you want out of yours.

I guess it was really naïve of me to assume you would not eventually cheat on me, since you did the same thing to the woman who came before me. You have a pattern of taking a person’s heart, and then smashing it into a million pieces.

You told me the day before I confronted you about the fact that you were cheating on me, that a person who cares about you and is a true friend does not treat you with disrespect. Funny, now that I think about it, that sounds kind of hypocritical coming out of your mouth.

What really sucks is, I was just starting to get over it all, to feel better about myself, when you once again burst back in and interrupted my life. Feeding me false promises, false hope. Shame on you for being so self-centered and shame on me for listening to you.

I am, however, glad I stopped listening, and did just as you said….I walked away. But, not for your benefit, I walked away for my own self preservation, my own dignity. It just really sucks that I have to endure once again, this mourning process.

Needless to say, I am not in a place where I can be “Just Friends” with you. Maybe someday, but right now I don’t like who you are, and I cannot be friends with someone I don’t like.